Don't remember writing about it but sometimes I miss those times when I used to read woman magazines about fashion, relationship and other topics which are believed to be 'feminine' as I usually was inspired and allured by all those charming, obviously photoshoped images of celebrities, models and so one. Although it hypnotized me and distorted the body image, I used to care about myself more. (Or maybe it only seems so..)

The one who was the first to say 'If you don't love yourself, no one else will' was right. It has been proved in my experience so many times. But it also true that I have high standards for people and usually get frustrated as they turn out to be just mortal, normal and natural human beings - the way I am.

A few days ago while talking to Jana I mentioned that I am still searching for extraordinary people - I don't know how Jana could suppress her laughing as it felt extremely hilarious and silly to me myself.

Today I have received a message from Didzis. He invited me to spend the evening together and possibly I would agree if I weren't home but it's good that I am somewhere - and with someone else.

There is an enormous quantity of sugar I have consumed during the last few days. I will extremely dizzy and sick. Hate it. Why do I do it to myself?

Tomorrow I will head back to town (have spent Christmas in Sloka) and eat veggies many days in a row to stabilize my well being and heal my liver.